Thursday, March 31, 2005
My Tito June called and has told me that we'll take a walk around Beverly Hills and Nike Town tomorrow. Now that's some consolation for me.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
That's my theme song for that day. Why wouldn't it be? That song was about Ocean Avenue in Santa Monica. It's just besides the beach itself. As I went to Santa Monica beach again, I went there a little bit late since my primary goal is to take a photo of the sunset (which didn't happened yesterday since I ran out of battery). As I was taking more photos along the beach. I just feel a certain calmness of the breeze. People having fun, and children enjoying their school breaks and having fun at the water. Couples walking along the shore together as the sun goes down (and I truly envy them!). There's such a satisfying feeling that overwhelms my whole being. There's a certain contentment that I feel in me. It's like taking photos of this place does not only bring me joy, but also a message. That life is calm like a breeze. You just have to accept it with open arms. Every photos I took has something to say. Has a certain meaning in it. Besides the message or emotions I want to portray in every picture I took.
I'm excited to show the photos to my friends and see how far I can go with this photography thing. It really lets me explore thing that I can never imagined to do. Talk about hidden talent! It is really a great feeling for me to be in this place. As the sun is about to bid farewell that day. A certain aura was covering my whole being. So serene, so peaceful. As I look at the sunset, I can hear it's voice. Like it was talking directly to my mind. As the day ends, a new day awaits with hope. Just like the song of Semisonic (Closing Time) - "Every new beginning comes from some another beginning's end." As I was about to head home. I took a last glimpse of the beach. I will always remember this place. One of the best places I went.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
It's a window in my parent's room. I was just fascinated with the outcome that I thought, Hey, I think I'll go to Santa Monica beach today. Just for the fun of it. So as I prepared myself on my way there, one thing is running on my mind: embrace the world of photography and learn more about it. What becomes a new discovery of a talent in me, and just an experimentation on my camera. It became a hobby, no a passion. I started to enjoy taking pictures of anything and everything. Just for the kick. As I arrived there, I didn't waste any precious time to take pictures of anything that I find interesting. From the birds that are flying, to the men who patiently waits for a fish to take a bite on their baits. It was so windy in there. A bit cold, since spring is getting near (hopefully since April is a couple of days away now) I keep on taking photos and I was just in time there since I can wait for the sunset and have a photo of it. But too bad my battery just went dead on me. I forgot to charge my battery! Doh! Oh well, I'll just drop by tomorrow and take more pictures of the place. Such a beautiful place indeed. Here's some sample of my pictures.
Monday, March 28, 2005
Inside the India Jones ride
Wow! While waiting in line in Indiana Jones
Inside the Haunted Mansion
It's a small world
Oh! They have chilii dogs!!
What?!? 3 hours wait for the Splash Mountain? Err.. Never mind then! Let's go Mattarhorn again!
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Me, my folks, and my cousins Chuck, Kevin, and Francis went to Disneyland in Anaheim. We did enjoy the place. The place is huge! The parking lot itself is the 2nd biggest parking area in the world! (the biggest is Disneyland in Tokyo, Japan) We even had to ride a tram from the parking area to the main entrance. As we went inside I was astound by it's size. It's like a town, a very happy town. Bands marching, every Disney characters are there. Even Muriel from the Little Mermaid. We tried almost all the rides there. From the Indiana Jones to the Mattarhorn. Some rides are for kids like the It's a small world where you'll see different dolls representing different countries, or the Buzz Light year ride. But it was definitely fun. It took us the whole day to go around the whole theme park. We got tired of falling in line and waiting for our turn to ride, but it was worth the wait. We finished the night by watching a play from the movie Fantasia. It was really fantastic! I'm really amazed by the effects they'd used. We went out of the theme park at around 11 pm. All tired but I can really say it was all worth it. I have a splendid time there. It was indeed the happiest place on earth.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
I didn't hesitate to put it all together and start playing with it. Took some photos around the house and here's some photos I took with my new Canon PowerShot G6!
Friday, March 25, 2005
Thursday, March 24, 2005
And I totally agree with this quote. I don't know where I get this quote, but it doesn't matter. Well, as boredom keeps on bombarding itself in me, I was just inside my room the whole day and suddenly this quote crossed my mind. And I asked myself, "are we really ready to take a risk and is it avoidable?" As I think about it, I just think that everywhere we go, risk are always with us. From the moment we woke up, to our way to work or school, and even in relationships. I believe there is no such thing as perfect, thus a perfect relationship never exist. Heck! Even our relationship with God is not even perfect! (should I go on with this one?) I'm in a relationship, in a long distance relationship to be exact. It is hard and it has many risk. Sometimes it makes me depress and paranoid. But as long as I trust her and I know deep in me, I'm not doing anything wrong here. Everything will just work out fine. But anything can happen, from the simplest arguments over the phone to the worst scenario where I got mugged here or maybe have another one (same on her too). Like I said; Trust, honest, and loyalty should be the major factors that will affect ones relationship to work out fine. The rest are just sub-factors to make it through or solidify it. Being here away from my girlfriend is hard, and really risky. The fact that we know that we are far from each other - meaning we don't see each other, we just hear our voices can be risky. If I abused this type of freedom I'm experiencing right now, I wouldn't plan going back to the Philippines at all. Another risk is this place. With full of gangs, racist and homeless lunatics, nobody can say what's gonna happen to me. Same to her since there's a lot of Christian-Muslim collisions are happening back there. There's a lot of risk, that's the bottom line. From the mere fact that some of it are real facts, and some maybe just paranoia - it is still a risk that everyone will face. Yeah, maybe I'm getting the Homer Simpson type where almost all the insane and out of this world ideas are crossing to my mind, it is still considered a risk for me.So are Am I really ready to take risk? The answer will be both no and yes. No, because one you thought of the risk you are facing, it'll scare the shit out of you that it'll make you go crazy and do something stupid. Stupid meaning trying to avoid it. For me, avoiding such risk will end up in another risk. A good example will be, being late. You'll tell the person you'll gonna meet sorry and make white lies, like EDSA is really congested with crazy ass drivers. As you do this again and again plus the excuses, that person will loose trust in you, and she'll get mad and the worst thing will be not seeing you again. Rather than telling the real reason you got late, tell them your sorry and it wont happen again, and take the risk of the person getting so pissed at you for just only a day. So I already did answer the 2nd question. "We can't avoid taking risk." So what should we do? We should brave enough to face that fear, and the bold enough to take that risk, we will be a better individual. I'm not saying that it'll make us a better that we will be wiser and such, but we will have a better view of life, and the understanding why such like risky situations exist. As the one of the Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon says "That's a risk I'm willing to take." And every decision I made maybe won't do me any good, or maybe it'll just make me miserable or depress. But that's a risk I'm willing to take.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
1) Why is it called the music for teens?
2) Is it really a genre or just another trend?
As I tried to search on the net for answers Urban Dictionary define Emo as a Genre of softcore punk where it integrates unenthusiastic melodramatic 17 year old. It is derived from the emotive style of the lyrics and music. The music has also spawned a subculture which conforms to certain conventions in dress such as tight sweatshirts, tight band T-shirts and horn-rim glasses. Adherents profess to excessively melancholy temperaments. The website MP3.com define emo as an artsy outgrowth of hardcore punk, emo became an important force in underground rock by the late '90s, appealing to modern-day punks and indie-rockers alike. Its brief history says it originated around 1984 and emerged in Washington, D.C. The term "emo" (sometimes lengthened to "emocore") was initially used to describe hardcore bands who favored expressive vocals over the typical barking rants; the first true emo band was Rites of Spring, followed by ex-Minor Threat singer Ian MacKaye's short-lived Embrace. Other artist who went to the emo bandwagon were Fugazi, At The Drive-In, Jimmy Eat World and Weezer; While some new emo artist are My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday, The Used, A.F.I, Simple Plan, And even Blink 182 are staring slowly to move in to the said genre in its new album. OK, so far, it's a sub genre of Punk, the teens are its target market and people who are into this genre dress in tight shirts and some weird hair styles too. So why the music does fits the teens? First emo is said to be a type of music in where its lyrics are confessional it heavily favors expressive and low pitch vocals. For me with this definition, emo became a security blanket for them. With this type of music, they express how they really feel, confused and angst driven. It's a perfect target market since at this age, people tends to be confuse on what's going on with them and are trying to find a window where they want to let out their anger. Emo is that window for this kids and not another type of music for them. So is it really a genre or a trend then? The way I see the emo scene, it is more of a trend than a genre. Why? First all songs can be emotional and the lyrics can either be confessional or angst driven. All songs can show emotions, like Emo too. So it seems like a certain song can make you cry or sad since the lyrics will be emotional, but the musical approach will just be different with Emo's low pitch vocals and heavily detuned and low pitched guitar riffs. Second, whoever said that Staind's Outside or even A Perfect Circle's 3 Libras didn't make them emotional are stupid. These two songs are an example of two Alternative Rock or Hard Rock music that can show sadness or even frustrations. So I just realized now that emo is not a genre but just a trend where angry teenagers are embracing now as a way to show their anger and other emotions they're hiding inside. I don't hate emo or the artist under it. As a music lover, I just find it weird and pointless for other people to say that it is a genre and go crazy over it. It is way too exaggerated for them to be so "emo". And as I was writing this, I'm currently listening to Tacking Back Sunday's This Photograph Is Proof (I Know You Know). Oh Emo! =)
Monday, March 21, 2005
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Friday, March 18, 2005
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Right? But not in my case! I mean I work extra 30 minutes for free. I know people will ask me "Then why do you still work there?" They won't understand how hard it is to work here. How hard it is to find a job. How hard to live here and to survive. But I just keep on hanging on coz I have goals to meet and dreams to fulfill. And I'd rather wait patiently till May since I won't stay here long. I'm really going back to Manila.
So yes I didn't go to work coz my back hurts and at the same time I'm lazy ash hell! Just a perfect combination at a perfect timing.
How I wish I'm home....
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
But I'm hungry. Better eat before I sit down and face my sanctuary. Ah! It’s just another typical day in my life. Pain is covering my whole body for a measly $54 a day. It’s just another day to waste.
Monday, March 14, 2005
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Thursday, March 10, 2005
I don't know what got into me right now. Its already 6 am and I'm still wide awake. I missed 2 days of posting what's going on with my work. But too lazy to put in much detail about it. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow. Talked to my friend April and asked her if her sis Mitch is still mad at me. I don't know when this will end. She knows how I feel right now. April understands that I'm in state of depression. Too much information coming to my mind now. Too much emotions to let out. To much attention needed. Too many task to be accomplished. Why in the world should my life be this way? God! I hate it when I feel this way! I should be doing things that I really want to be done. Like post blogs for the days that I missed, Poems that I made and have to re-edit to show more emotions. I have to let this out! I'm pissed!, I'm sad, I'm depressed, I'm aggravated, I'm nothing! I feel like I don't exist in this so called world! Like I have my own world and nobody cares if I exist or nobody gives a shit that I'm here. Waiting for someone to listen to me. Feel my emotions, and feed their minds with my thoughts. I guess I just have to let this shit out first before I can move on to new chapter of my life. Whatever! Fuck it! I just hate my situation now. Just simply fuck it!
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Friday, March 04, 2005
Wait, I'm seeing different colors, I feel light. But I feel slow. My head feels heavy. Gee! I'm stoned.... G-R-E-A-T!
Thursday, March 03, 2005
As I said this morning. I'll be going to San Diego with my aunt. It's not that I'm lazy at work but I'm so tired with that kind of work. No-brain-er job but it needs physical strength. I'm not really used on that kind of work. But I'm just doing this for the sake of buying the stuff I really want. Oh well hopefully I'll have a great time in San Diego. Hopefully I can meet my friends there.
Now! Finally I'm done editing my My Space account. New site, new style. Hope someone will have the patience to read them. Coz it's really long. Too stoned to finish tweaking and editing my friendster blog and photo album. I'm still sick. Still have fever. This is the longest day I'm ever absent at work. I feel so weak and sick! I decided to go with my aunt in San Diego. That way I can have a different environment and also at the same time, I can just sit and chill for a while. Maybe I can meet my friends there Mach and Shear. Hopefully. Now I'm almost done in editing my Friendster blog and photo album. A week of rest, not bad at all. That's all for now. Since there's no concrete idea that's coming out of my mind. I might as well take a rest and just lay it down while be overwhelmed of being stoned!